Thursday, 31 December 2015

Monday, 28 December 2015

brick wall

reasoning with you
is like running head first 
full speed - into a brick wall

Monday, 21 December 2015

Friday, 18 December 2015

Wednesday, 16 December 2015

stretch

you always did have that curious
opened lip, wrinkled brow, look on your face
it made me smile to see it

your hair is so long these days

Monday, 14 December 2015

intuitive


use your healing hands
to mend someone else's heart


he may be oblivious to your intentions
but i'm not

Friday, 4 December 2015


how can I expect someone to connect to my heart strings
the way I have connected with someone they have never met

Someone they have never had the pleasure of loving

on days like today, you flood my mind
the music we listened to, extracts our memories

on days like today
I am overwhelmed 
I am beside myself

at a love so great
at love I had the pleasure
 of experiencing

it makes me want to go

if you see this anymore

My heart will always throb, when yours does

things look so bad, everywhere

While the sun continued to hide
Well after my alarm went off
I squinted through tired eyes at this:

"If you're struggling, you deserve to make self-care a priority. Whether that means lying in bed all day, eating comfort food, putting off homework, crying, sleeping, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, watching your favorite tv show, or doing nothing at all - give yourself permission to put your healing first. Quiet the voice telling you to do more and be more, and today, whatever you do, let it be enough. Feel your feelings, breathe, and be gentle with yourself. Acknowledge that you're doing the best you can to cope and survive. And trust that during this time of struggle, it's enough." - Daniell Koepke

and it relieved just the slightest bit
of pressure



Thursday, 3 December 2015

Wednesday, 2 December 2015

dome, globe, noggin, head

what the HELL is it about you
that refuses to let me lose 
the least bit of interest in you
you are nothing close to what i want
but you're everything i want

Monday, 30 November 2015

4 years of
4 names,
4 souls,
4 bodies,
4 sets of goosebumps
up and down the spines
at the touch of my hand
and my mind races and replays
each and every one 
over and over

Friday, 27 November 2015

Wednesday, 18 November 2015

some nights
you love me
more than i
love you

and that all
too familiar
feeling
of thinking
myself out
of your arms
is creeping
up again on me

Friday, 13 November 2015

i'm reading back 6 months, a year
and feel like i am reading thoughts 
of a complete stranger, oozing with
aching emotions and cryptic writing
that make no sense at all

ani difranco

cause some day you are gonna get hungry
and eat all the words you just said

Thursday, 12 November 2015

you tell me to quiet down cause
my opinions make me less beautiful
but i was not made with a fire in my belly
so i could be put out
i was not made with a lightness in my tongue 
so i could be easy to swallow

i was made heavy
half blade and half silk
difficult to forget but
not easy for the mind to follow

- rupi kaur

Friday, 6 November 2015


every time it comes on
I think of you and our late nights driving,
chasing northern lights, head in my lap
your pale face looking up at me

and truly hope there isn't hole
where I used to occupy
for too much longer

Tuesday, 3 November 2015

a part of my heart is opening
once again
it has been years
and through the tears
I tell him about you
about the weight of past love
about how things are different this time
but still very much the same
and it is something 
that is not to be taken lightly

Essena

fuck what they think

Friday, 2 October 2015

Tuesday, 29 September 2015

better, together

in your company

your bitch

http://stateofvorfreude.com/blog/2015/9/28/i-want-to-talk-about-last-night-why-not-wanting-to-be-your-btch-doesnt-make-me-a-btch

this. this is huge

Monday, 28 September 2015

to all you coming out of the wood work,
don't bother

Thursday, 24 September 2015

Monday, 14 September 2015

Thursday, 10 September 2015

i'm ready for round one
you're ready for round three