vulnerability

is something i seem to struggle with.
trustworthy or not
i always leave feeling like that piece of me i shared, is completely gone from me. 
that piece of me, back with that person. being held (tightly or loosely) in their hand.
never to be found again, by myself. 
i know externalizing is a part of dealing with life's...lessons

but i always leave, more unsettled & vulnerable than ever before.