to us both

this is so detrimental.

stacks

stacks on stacks on stacks

of repeated internalizing

domino affect

this is stupid

changing lanes every two seconds

from giving up, to not a chance in hell

writing this goddamn shitty paper;

i'd rather clean my toilet

or yours!

yes

What are qualities you find attractive/admiring in a woman?

Fluid rationality and calm optimism.

words of her wise

this is my time now

hands

maybe not ones cut out for aesthetics,

they may never be warm on their own,

but they're sensible, strong, determined

cut out for the future.

say one thing; 
for god's sake
mean that thing
that one thing

on repeat

"you" has never been me

case of you

Just before our love got lost you said
"I am as constant as a northern star"
And I said "Constantly in the darkness
Where's that at?
If you want me I'll be in the bar"

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”

—	F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

It's raining

time is just time is just time is just time is just time is just time

time is only time

the little i care

facebook reminded me it was your birthday.
today's date has long been removed from importance in my life.

i suppose it's that 

time of year again

raw

:raw realizations

and surprising detachment

“I want a tattoo of the first morning we woke up together. I want the memory to hurt.”

—	Clementine von Radics

nearly all day

honesty

should have remained unsaid. 

Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.

Sylvia Plath

i've lost count

this reverses my roles

I intentionally limit my vision to an arms' length around me, some days. Habitually peering ahead wears on a person. 

song for the sold

my money is already down. 

time frames

cheating

because the only one i'd be cheating; is myself.

I left more than just my wallet, in Van

listen well