I wanna hurry home to you
Put on a slow, dumb show for you and crack you up
So you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
God, I'm very, very frightening, I'll overdo it

http://throughcloudyvision.tumblr.com

These days

The only thing vandalizing my curls 
Are these split shifts & nightmares

Run

I awoke this morning ready to run

old messages

Looking back on conversations we used to have, years ago
It brought me some peace, wiping it in its entirety 

Although I'm confident you haven't changed a bit
I feel no remorse, or any identifiable emotion for you
I simply wish all the best to you

Thank you for showing me exactly what I don't want

Wherever you go, wherever you are, I watch your life play out in pictures from afar 

- Atmosphere, John Mayer.

This evening

hold me at ease.

Full moon

this full moon weekend has provoked some terribly confusing nightmares

I don't want to sleep alone tonight
I want your company

Expecting

I'm always expecting immediate results.

Horse Feathers

Let this take you away

I don't imagine
thugs and feminists
get along too kindly.

Dear Mr. Not-so-nice guy

See, the funny thing about dick-moves..word of them spreads real fucking quick.

People TALK. They inform. 

Of all the people in my life, I would hope that you wouldn't talk about me in such an blatantly objectifying fashion.

But apparently this is asking too much of a close friend of several years. 

I know once upon a time, you used to read this.

If you still do.. this is for you.

Fucking.read.it

Via plane

This upcoming lover's day
I'm running 2800 miles away

I

de·sire  

/dəˈzī(ə)r/

Noun A strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.

Verb Strongly wish for or want (something).

Synonyms noun.   wish - longing - craving - request - lust - will - want verb.   wish - want - will - crave - like - yearn - long - covet That re·lease   /riˈlēs/ Verb Allow or enable to escape from confinement; set free. Noun The action or process of releasing or being released. Synonyms verb.   free - liberate - discharge - set free - let off - let go noun.   liberation - deliverance - discharge - relief - exemption

The series of seasons

In my life
Make me love
Things like that

I think about you

Very often

That won't change

I'll answer my own question :

Your message was received, loud and clear.

building bridges

In life, there are some gaps that aren't meant to be bridged

Time to quiet these good intentions of mine

Michigan

tug*

I just don't have time for things like this. 

Once upon a time

Right again

I hate when you prove me right

Not by what you're doing

But by what you're not doing

Stop what you're not doing, fuck

It's a curious thing

The great lengths young adults will go to, to fit in. To blend in. To be accepted.

But I'm a thinker, not a talker

I still

sigh

A three lettered word that changed everything

If I could go back and change things

I would change the pace of progress in the journey

I would have had a knowledgeable, honest and sexually minded woman

To walk me through it all, to watch me grow and change

Instead of having those first few months pass by out of my control

In frustration

upgrowing

The more I grow to understand you, and why you act the way you do

The more I grow to understand how to better protect myself from myself

ha

Sometimes it's the smallest experiences that thrill my child-mind, the most.

8TH JAN 2013 | 90 NOTES

hosupitari:

I don’t know how to be friends with anyone because I only want to love everyone and everyone falls in love with me but I’m not in love with them I merely love everyone yet I have no friends, only disappointed lovers. 

(via babyheroin)

I know the feeling. 

I fall into such deep fascination

With a woman who honestly/openly, crudely and most importantly, 

Humanly expresses herself in a beautifully tasteful manner;

And the intrinsic hurt of a man who once loved with fierce vulnerability

Sometimes so much so, that I lose touch with reality

And my own perspective is clouded over with theirs.

She's small, and has bedroom eyes. 

She has a mess of brown hair and beautiful, glowing tan skin. 

She keeps to herself, but you can tell she is searching, yearning for something. 

She's stuck in this horrible town, but she deserves to be anywhere she wants.

She's a romantic, but no boy deserves her. I don't deserve her.

-Anonymous 

I ask of you

To ask, and always expect

Honesty of me

In place of assumptions

Or others' word of mouth.

I'm am presently

And always will be

An open book.

Just ask

You will always be

Given an honest answer

Although perhaps uncertain

Always, an answer

& believe me. 

I am

And always have been

From the start.

My intention

is for these small pieces of you, 
found throughout each song
 to be on replay

in my quiet, over and over

and with time, for the ache

to not burn, so much

Or at least

I will try

nothing sweet

getting better with each passing day

The price of fun

This morning in the shower
as I wash half a tequila shot out of my hair
I can't help but smile
At how proud of each and every single decision I made yesterday
I'm beginning to know myself a little better every day

And ps. If either of you happen to see this.
Just know you've fucked up any chance of having a place in my life
I hope you're happy
And I hope it was worth it

How scary a thought

How scary is it
That no matter how I see you
Who I see you with
No matter what I see you doing
Or who I've heard you're doing

That I will always love you
That my heart will always ache to be with you

That no matter what form you're in
Good, bad, reckless, irresponsible, arrogant, cold, hurting
That I will love you, and everything that I know to be good, in you
From however far away I may be
Or however far away, you've up and gone

How scary a thought
How can you train your heart to walk away
From such a peculiar love

A long time from now
I will look back at this and smile
Fond of how I once loved you
And how my love for you has changed
Resting at how I now love you

My heart aches
And will ache in many other ways
That nothing could prepare me for
No time, or heeding advice
In this new year

Around you

I'm becoming a ghost

If you keep pushing the subject
And imposing your expectations constantly
Guaranteed, you'll have pushed me out of your reach
And I can damn well guarantee you'll see me 
Doing the farthest thing from
What you'd "like to see me" do. 

Some mornings it would have been better for me to just not awake

to such a damaging mood like this, without reason

new years kiss

My new years kiss, belonged to a champagne glass, and a wad of bills.