Conversations

miss having those with you

some days, I am so awkward

I'm into :

Are you?

“I was by myself for a pretty long time. I needed to do that. 
I think everyone that I know has wanted to do that or needed to do that at some point.
 I think when you spend enough time when it’s quiet around you and you don’t open your mouth for three or four days, there’s parts of your brain that can kind of rest. 
I think when we’re out in the world and we have to talk to people, we edit ourselves. 
You know, we have to like, act a little bit. As honest as we may be as humans, when we’re out here, we’re all kind of wearing mirrors on our faces. 
You know, constantly reacting to how to react to the people around you. 
And I think when you’re alone for a long enough time, you can feel a lot more peace.”

—	Justin Vernon

The call

Come back to life
Come back to me
You've got so many reasons to live
Don't focus on the one reason not to
There's a reason you're still here with us

My pot

I think it's time I stop hanging on

It's time I (let you) go

I loathe watching you put my predictions into practice

ninety mile water wall

After this 60 hour week

All I want is

“I know 
you and I
are not about poems or
other sentimental bullshit
but I have to tell you
even the way 
you drink your coffee
knocks me the fuck out.”

—	Clementine von Radics

Secret :

Mine is, not giving them something to talk about. 

!!!!!!

maymaymaymaymaymaymaymaymaymay21st

Grizzly Bear: Veckatimest

Album to be played at every significant event in my life

♥

counter-intuitive

I am consistently : counterintuitive

A good man is hard to find. 

A gift I can never return

No one has captured a moment in time

As well as you did, in that picture of me

Thank you

Starting now

In all forms

Love.me.foolishly.

Moments of impact

I'm at home tucked in bed balling my eyes out watching the vow
while everyone else is getting drunk off green beer tonight
my god I'm such a baby what am I going to do with my life.

"Stop trying to get it together. The biggest lie we're told when we're growing up is that as soon as we're adults, as soon as we're in college, finish college, get that job, have that steady income, find that someone special, find ourselves, find that perfect house, get that retirement fund, have those children, everything will fall into place.
Here's a secret : it won't.
The sooner you accept that, the better off you'll be."

-Unknown

No country for old men:

As the years progress, a different way of thinking is assimilated into media, education and networking. Tradition is frowned upon. Black is white, and white is black. 

The right of "choice" trumps any sense of human decency we all carry with us. 

Anyone of baby boomer age and older are gradually being escorted from their influential positions in society, along with their opinions and respect for tradition, out of sight. 

I see the character, commitment, integrity and compassion of people going out of style. 

And it makes me sick to my stomach. 

This country has simply outgrown the old men. 

dirty.

Please :

Don't ever apologize for talking endlessly,

this is such a dream of mine.

Even more wedding bells :

and

as a result of..

wait and see

I'm going to be that door 

you wish you could open. 

Nightmare

Being aware of someone next to me throughout a night
Keeps the hallucinations at bay

A lot less of this

And a lot more of this

High highs

Perfect

Tend-enc(ies)

Who are you? And how did you manage to completely 

derail my entity within the course of twelve hours?

Gentle hands

"I'll try to have a peaceful sleep tonight. I've always struggled with years of nightmares."

"Want to know why?"

"Yes; I do."

"It's because you're a control freak."

"Do I come across as one?"

"Not to many people. You hide it well."

"No one has ever told me that before."

"Are you usually in complete control of yourself? Or do people perceive you as such?"

"Yes."

"Ya. Try to loosen up a bit.....Charity, it was a pleasure meeting you."

Hell. 

This morning, everything in my being was destroyed. 

So fucked.

God. 

Sometimes I step back

And see just how incredibly fucked I am.

You would think I'd had gotten used to this helplessness by now.

Bar

You really set that fucking thing high.

Clear off the bed and come lie next to me

Or lie with me, or crawl under these sheets

and die with me

or without

I'm used to it

but I could get used to this

Clear out your mind

and sink down low with me

or get high with me

or hold my hand

and lose some time with me

or without

I'm used to it

but I could get used to this

Clean up your act

and fall apart with me

or fall, apart from me

or fall, a part of me

and take some time to cry with me

or without

I'm used to it

but I could get used to this

- J.P // 2012

Aftermath

I'm not certain on a lot of things in life

But I am certain about what the affect would be

Ten foot pole always in affect

Man down

I want you to stay

Someone needs to make love to me, with that song playing. Lawdy

Panick is not an emotion I am familiar with, or am able to properly deal with.

goosebumps

"Don't get me wrong. Danger is very real. 

But fear, isn't; it's a choice."

Take me somewhere nice

This sadness always follows this kind of day
I happened upon this song, that stirs this sadness
I don't particularly mind

Too often, I see people fighting the echo

Their missing piece.

That uninhabited part of themselves.

Their loneliness.

I do my best to take comfort in it.

Nobody will take care of me,

The way I will.

Running trend

I've noticed a pattern that

I seem to keep - my bag packed

Collecting the company

During the nights we share

In an invisible jar

From each one of you

For nights when my bag

Is unopened on my bedroom floor

Why the fuck is everybody and everything around me so incredibly messed up? 

When did I turn a blind eye to all of this?

taste

I will spend the entire duration of my life, pursuing

I'm not

I'm not a good person
I just do good things

The mind is on

Levelheaded

I am