I fought the war

but the war won

   There are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark. 

Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. 

Just hearing their name pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, 

and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, 

words are useless.

via —Sara Zarr, Sweethearts

unsuspecting

a newly required unsuspecting way to protect myself,
fairly clever if I do say so myself
camouflaged under aloofness 

click

I slept 12 hours straight last night

without you, dreaming of nothing

but you

love.

"You've begun to feel like home. 

What's mine is yours to leave or take, what's mine is yours to make your own."

I don't care if they're awkward and nervous

I cheered!!

god, I heal fucking wonderfully

flow

I want to put my circuits in the sea

I want to feel every swell

throb

contentment

some moments of utmost contentment
occur stretched over miles and miles of pavement

yum.

retract

re·tract/riˈtrakt/

Verb:

Draw or pull (something) back or back in: "she retracted her hand". Withdraw (a statement or accusation) as untrue or unjustified.

restless nights

all these restless nights are catching up to me

hm.

it's a curious thing

what honesty does for one's peace of mind

even if it's shared with someone fairly irrelevant 

but a long time hopeless romantic, nonetheless

I think you would have liked what I was wearing today

spanish sahara

if you haven't ever watched this video

i highly recommend doing so now

it'll do your soul a great deal of good

winter is coming

excuse the directness

but hallelujah amen. 

dark was the night

sometimes it's best to just

stop thinking

and just breathe

it'll do a lot of good 

for a case of distorted perspective

dimethyltryptamine

you are

1. a natural disaster
2. a rolling stone
3. a exotic creature
4. restless for the unknown
5. certainly not returning

at times I think maybe you rubbed off on me

mute

and you're all on it

until I take you off

ho my,
sometimes I shake my head at how naturally inadvertent I can be

she's a mess of gorgeous chaos, and you can see it in her eyes.

hungry eyes

what's a king to a God? what's a God to a non-believer?

RIGHT NOW I'M HALF WISHING THAT I ENROLLED FOR THIS SEPTEMBER, NOT NEXT SEPTEMBER UGH

gradually

"the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"

i'm getting the hang of this concept.

I appear aloof from a distance

because you have left me no other choice but to

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   ther·a·peu·tic

I am still in love with that place

but I don't have a plan

lapse

Marilyn & I did not sleep well last night
Hopefully tonight we'll find a momentary lapse.

french

I'll bet my tattoo fund that you aren't going to enjoy once I begin to reciprocate the little amount of respect you show me

all faith was lost in the arms of love

I’m always missing someone or someplace or something, i’m always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. my life has been one long longing.

— Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via peaceblaster)

août

she was drunk with her child-like perspective of your approach 
                                                                                          of your passion.